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A Poet's Dozen A Friendship Secret From
The World Yellow and Blue Needle In A Haystack Tabula
Rasa OK Eternity Passes Thru Friendships Like Secrets
Thru A Dream GOD LOVES US Timeless Moon At One With The
Stars You, Me, And The Two Of Us JIM
Another
Poet's Dozen But Enough of Us And Woman What
Is She? The Next God Beauty Prayer This Noon Of Our Lives Dulcere! Dulcere! Mother's
Day, 1996 ToeMan BriMan JIMBO
"Since my dear soul was mistress of
her choice And could of men distinguish
her election, Sh'hath seal'd thee
for herself." WS
We Have
A Friendship Secret From The World
It is sunset in the spring and I chant homage to a man I cannot see Because I am alone on a slanting panting hillside in some ephemeral spring, And though trepidation and timidity hue the color
of my ring To the hour I bring a courage the world
has never seen.
It is sunset in the spring, so I am aware of eternity Changing colors, and the scent of coming rain As it relates to pain. There is beauty in seeing truth unfurled. We have a friendship secret from the world.
It
is sunset in the spring, and I bid you remember our ineffable love Every sunset every spring forever. And when you do, bring enough Passion to the moment as two men can share, whether you are curled About the scene by yourself or with another, and remember the ecco hurled
across time by your trembling brother:
We Have A Friendship Secret From The World
Yellow And Blue
Now, let us get down
to business. I love you Like a yellow daffodil loves the brown
earth And the blue sky loves the white clouds But for the life of me I could never figure out How yellow could be your
favorite color Until now.
Now I have seen the yellow flower blossoming first in springtime Flaring like a god against the green, harkening and beckoning like a woman Who has come to make a man see what beauty should be seen. Now
I know what you mean.
"Nathless," I love pure azure more than the golden sandgrains of the shore, More than the golden sandgrains love the shore, I love azure And the difference
between yellow and blue is the difference between me and you And no one can say
that one is more beautiful than the other.
You and I are dutiful to ourselves, and we know what that means. Mix
yellow and blue and you make green.
Needle In A Haystack
We dident ping the frad because we dident have to. Nothen proves nothen. Even your sneezing--it culdave been a cold you got from moven between the cold box
and the rain for 18 hours, wearing shorts, or it culdave bin allergies in what they used to call Spring--- Even your sneezing proves nothen proves nothen. The Delni
sourcen the Dempr holden the cable hangen from the paperclip in that closet on the
5th floor mightave bin the problem, but the router off the tap mighta bin in consort. All I know iswe did some serious thinken. Even then, we did some mildly deleterious drinken. Nothen
proves nothen. Except, I think some things prove somethen. What do you think?
You emailed, I poemed,It's all new
to the world. And yet it is the same. It is all the same. And yet it is different. It is all different. And it is all the same. God bless you for the road. God
Bless You For The Road, My Brother, God Bless You For The Road... Reply enabled. Reply intuited. Transceivers abound omnipresently...dotcom.
Stop. Time is not what we thought it was, or at least not what they thought
it was. I never thought it was anything. It
was somethen when we were. It will be what it was, just as it
is what it is. Everything comes back. Time runs out.
Knowledge? We don't even know if we found that needle in the haystack.
Tabula Rasa, And The Light Shows
I erase my soul, and what my soul erases Is a hieroglyphic
covering of a secret I cannot confess. And lo, yo, O who among us does not know
That painful love we feel but cannot show?
~~At this moment in time cacophonous human existence Dictates rapid and frequent changes In voices, forms, laws
and rhyme~~ But having come under
control amid the chaos, we know The pace humanity takes; what is hidden, what revealed; And whether or not a reason has any value. This is who we are. There's no such thing as time, and the painful love we feel, we show. Forget all obligations but to ourselves. Then will that to which we cling be ready To fulfill its
obligation to itself In a manner worthy of GOD. Now that there is some semblance of control amid the chaos, Come let us be comfortable with our destiny, with our fate. Sometimes I hate oblivious worlds. So come, let us be livious. Let us believe in ourselves and in the fulfillment of our dream.
OK
OK My tongue is out and I am Drunk on life and stoned on death And it is all the same. OK The same is true over and over again I love you, your generosity
ceaselessly astonishes a generous man, At 2 a.m., EST, summer, circa tenthousand,
mood upon me OK A form is developing,
form develops, and we develop form and when we create form We create beauty,
we serve god, we structure the truth of the age. I don't believe in time anymore,
but I know that I will die. OK Someone
already said what I thought in that kernel of space, but with a different tune. Stay with me now. On and on we go, and where she stops, nobody knows Unless they know the hidden meanings OK I travel long hours thru the night, like a knight on horseback across the countryside, So do not wonder why I am so weary in the early morning, But wonder where
I was. OK So many eternal nights of fiery
black truth that I cannot see it close or in the distance, O no you cannot
see it either from where you stand because nobody can see it from Anywhere it is invisible, inaudible, insmellable,
intasteable, intouchable, ineffable OK Let it go where it may. Let it go where it will. It will go where it should. Just don't let me lose myself--to anger and frustration, to no sense of self-- Let your favors to me equal my favors to you—let us live, brother to brother OK
Eternity Passes Thru Friendships Like Secrets Thru A Dream
I dont got no time to be sentimental right now.
Nor is this the business hour. I just want to reminisce, and howl Sweetbejesus to the moon
like an owl Perched alone on an elm.
How Willm Blake illuminated the world watershedded my week, too.
Again some corner of my conscience tells me
I should go to bed, cause it is 3:30 a.m. But another, heavier side says that then
I could not write to you. Strength wins. Selah.
I'm dizzy with our love--of course, I'm
only going on instinct, cuz that's all I know
But I know the truth when I digest it.
I swallow my ego, in the morning I shit out my dreams—
Know your self thru death.
When I die, remember me
And the forms I sought to create And the forms I admired And the Form I thought was God
And that the Form I thought was GOD was a Goddess who governs us one and all.
So fare you well, you, listen to the punctuation in the sound of the brook, The creek, the stream, the river, the pond, the lake, and the sea, And you will glean what I mean when across nonexistent time I scream
Friendship passes thru eternity like secrets thru a dream.
GOD LOVES US
In the end Nothing matters but the air.
What binds? what separates? what governs? That's the only thing
that matters, and it's fluid, Like the flow of woman, like the flow of man.
Sanctus Sanctus Sanctus There is you, there is me, and there is us. There is, there is it, "It
itself it," O there is God, And GOD is made of fire.
Man has only such form as is given him, Can speak only as his nature allows. Deus sive Natur.
In the end what you think is your world Is nothing more than your world. Expanding worlds is the key.
Humanity, culture, family, self, This is the way of which I chant, and the way in which we live. A way fated, by us.
I am
no numerologist, but I believe in the correspondence of things. And it is--I can't
remember, but I know it is. Therefore I suffer love and being fleetingly And the consciousness of the fleetingness intermingling with eternity rules me now.
A man is different
every day, and so is GOD, Yet it is all the same. Ha! What does it prove, Our famous luck?
GOD LOVES US
There Is No Such Thing As Time To The Moon
Lunatic moon, it never stays still, And for all my love and passion for the world Like
Venus I will never catch it.
Half-lunacy
is for the birds. This poem is for you.
It's 1:17 a.m. and I am Or at least it was, and if I am To do the hour justice I must praise The silent beauty of
your noble strength— Praise the silent beauty of your noble strength. Silence, beauty, nobility, and strength Are to God like
yellow to the day.
And then it's
after 2 and my head begins to heavy But I love you so much I do not want the night
to end. I love you so much I do not want life to end--
You know what that half-moon's got to do with us? So do I. Do not let time interfere with Love. Death shall not do us part. We have a friendship secret from the world. Your suffering is mine, mine yours, And nobody
can take that from us. And anything the moon takes, she gives back tenthousandfold.
Lunatic moon, it is 1:17 a.m. again And my love has only grown.
Tonight We Are At One With The Stars
Tonight I am at one with
the stars, And the stars are at one with me, And if the stars are at one with me, Then the stars are at one with you, Because I am at one with you And we are at
one with the world.
But enough
of us.
It is time for us to go, Yo, we gotta go. We'll see you when you
get there. Til then, yo, listen to sounds you don't normally hear, Guess the true voices, know them, and don't reveal all you know.
In the name of the GOD our Mother Creator of Love and Beauty, And wives with nipples erect against silk, gold
lingerie, And more than the world can imagine, Creator of All, In the name of GOD our Father, Man we railen holy o'er the wall, so Goddess be with us like lust with
lust-- Yo—In the name of God, let us go.
It is time for us to go, Yo tho there
is no such thing as time It is space for us to go, Yo, there's the window, we gotta go,
Beauty awaits our Love And the winds wanna wisk us thru the shadow of
the window now so Come, let us go without worry for the world, For we are at one with the stars And the stars are at one
with the world. So come on, let's go, We
are at one with the stars, And where we go, the world will follow.
You, Me, And The Two Of Us
O my God, How can I love you so much?' Do not laugh. I do not kid.' "How can I"...? How now Dominus out of Deus, Theus out of Zeus, Hamlet out of Amleth, Rome out of Greece, America out of the World, And such a love and friendship as ours out of us? Listen,
we both know it is ineffable--but it is also effable. The ineffable essence gives
rise to the effable Like elegies give rise to erections. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, us to us, The electrical world con-fuses with
fuses fuses And the many voices make a tongues inaudible GOD You know what I mean: Claritas, Integritas, Consonantia. Or is it, Integritas, Claritas, Consonantia. O quizas,Consonantia, Claritas, Integritas. Aquinas Spinoza Heraclitus Nietzsche Whitman Hesiod Jesus Buddha Socrates Mohammed
und Beethoven-- At T minus 77 minutes you just called me. Aint that an ilarious coincidence? You plus me equals three: You, me, and the two of us! And that three being a single entity makes four? She is a goddess who makes love like a free whore And I
try to do the same. It's a lesson in Love. "For who would bear the whips and scorns" Of suffering without love?
I love suffering less than I love orgasms But we love all the world the same.
Ephemerality gives CPR to vile, dying, time. Our strength includes
knowing we are coming back, And that strength is rooted in the past.We overcome transient time. Jordan jumps more than once every time he jumps. Verses versus verses! Ha! I go to her to
prolong the entity of our love. Sustain sustenance - - Now the sun sets, Gregory chants, birds chirp, purple blossoms, death waits, We understand what goes unspoken, and the unspoken in the spoken, and what gods And goddesses go come play labor suffer love wonder ponder brood struggle sweat And strive in our
presence - - Everything sustains. Conviction reigns.
I pain to tell you what I am when I am paining to tell you who I am.
Everything changes. I feel frantic at fleeing time, but I affirm it: WEOVERCOMETIMEANDWEKNOWHOWTOREADSLOWLYSOWEA PPRECIATEWHATLITTLESPACEEXISTSANDHOWTOPLAYWITHITW EDONTBACKSPACEDURINGREMOTEACCESSANDWEDONTLOOK BACKTOREGRETBUTTOLEARNGODISWITHUSYOUMEANDTHETW OOFUSSELAH
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But Enough Of Us
We dream, we labor, and we love, And the sound and the vision
of the form Terrorize us as much as they inspire our trust In Beauty.
Remember there
is more to life than money. I know you know that, but remember it. Remember there is more to life than society, And that society
would not be society without each self.
I know you know that, but remember
it. And more than remember it, abide
by it, With it, in it, thru it, in the divinity of the holy spirit, Shelter yourself from blasphemies of weak egos And go, go
to the center of your world, Find your God, your Truth, your Love, And share it with the world by giving it wholly to your self.
But enough of us. "Tell me of the other shapely realms of Beauty, "Sing to me of Hesiodian
returns, While the subtle world prospers And inspires a trust inspired by the
terror of beauty, And the fat contribute fat, the lean contribute lean, planters
and harvesters fruit---
And Woman What Is She?
And woman what is she? She likes to be turned around and
she wants you to do it. And sometimes she does not like to be turned around so she doesn't want you to do it. Therefore she is the avatar of truth, therefore
the avatar of beauty, Therefore she is the avatar of GOD. So we should respect her no less than anything in the world. Forget everything
else. It is exhilarating to stand before GOD--but so what? Push thru life like the sun thru dawn. Burn fire thru fire, pain thru pain,
pleasure thru pleasure, Let the world fulfill itself as it should. Enjoin her, join her, let fate fuse, let fate ring, Ping
the frad, fring the pad, fling the sad out the fricken window Forget everything
but beauty, fate, destiny, truth, goddesses, love, And woman, who wants the world's
intent to be fulfilled, Who wants to fulfill the world's intent, Who wants to feel the world's intent, And wants you
to do it.
The Next God
Love passes thru Beauty like wind thru the sky. And you and I, we who love Love and Beauty like a Goddess Loves a God at the break of Summer day, you and I Who stand
before each hour like men at the altar of their god. you and I Know more than
we can say. Where is the God who owns
us truly? Where is She? How many lives must we wait? I don't care what century it is, and neither does She-- But why does she wait?Is there something we've
forgotten, some sacrifice,Some ritual, some homage, some simple prayer?
Let this book be our prayer.
Sanctus Sanctus Sanctus Claritas Integritas
Consonantia Dominus In Excelsius Deus
Theus Zeus Holy Holy Holy O O O
Blood upon my flesh, scar across my head, I know truths no human words can chisel On
paper or in air, I know the truth Of pleasure making love with her despair, So do not doubt the truth of what I say For having been
there, I shall always stay Within the confines of her holy Love Like Beauty thru the throes of throbbing day.
Trust me, She comes. It is so clear That
tho she is not yet here, She is already here And we are her happy servants, Servants of Harmony, Daughter of Aphrodite, Goddess of Love and Beauty. By Ares,
God of War.
Beauty
Be you teeming, be you foaming, be you invisible, be you ubiquitous, be you
clean, We be striding through the centuries laboring to conform to your form, We be forming for ourselves the nature of your form, For you take many forms, but no form not given.
Beauty, O Beauty, chant with me now, You the silent voice, I the conduit Both of us in love with GOD.
Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus, Shape worlds with us,
Throb on throb.
Goddess on God God
on Goddess
God and Goddess Goddess and God
Come let us wander Come let us react to us And let the world watch And let the world stststutter And let them stammer n stutter We o we are of the air they breathe And they only do what god lets them.
Praise god for yet another rain in paradise Praise
god for yet another reign in paradise What do we care for anything in this realm?
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Prayer
In a quiet moment
in an autumn night, Alone and removed from the world, As is my wont, I pray.
Praise God For the beauty of this day. Praise God for all beauty, praise God for all day.
Praise God all day Praise God when you do not know
you are praising.
Praise Praise
Praise!
And Thank God. Thank God for the beauty of this day. Thank God for all beauty and all days and thank God allways.
Today I spent with my brother! What more glorious joy in the world? It infuses me so much that I think that I can speak to you, GOD, Actually be heard by you, the Almighty.
Thank you.
Thank you for giving me life and survival through this marvel, This
great gift, this blessedness, this this. Thank you for this.
Praise you for giving all you have
ever given to everything. Unfathomability's glimpses to me--I'm
sorry I stutter-- Today I spent with my brother!
Thanks and Praise Be to you, GOD, Thanks and Praise. May we meet again and again, GOD,
That I might give my thanks and praise ad infinitum.
This Noon Of Our Lives
OK, let the day begin with sex And let the Sun
shine yellow on her sex When we are finished, when she is finished, and I-- OK, and let the Sun shine yellow on the lime Then the green,
then the verdure, then the merger Of Beauty and Reality enduring like the sublime Concord of Reality and Dream, when you're really dreaming OK, let the black coffee words spill out on the cirrus white page Thru my
gazing on the violet tinted hillside while I think of you and the fading Of vile
time weaving with the greater stranger in the air, And we recognize the fusion
necessary for eternity, The death inherent in time.
OK, time is over. Let us get on with our lives. I go now and the Sun will carry the way, And
Beauty the wing escorting Man to Man, Love the other wing, and being overwhelmed With the feeling one thought of you brings, I pray, To the unnamed unsayable One On whose fingertip one atom is the Sun: Praise Praise Praise!!! Sanctus Sanctus Sanctus!!! Sunday - - Summer - - Supernaturalism - - Sex - - OK! OK
praise you, avatar and angel! praise you! And in my praising you, let my praise
fly up to GOD Who sources this noon of our lives. Selah.
Dulcere!
Dulcere!
During gestation I dreamed, seemingly posthumously, in Autumn.
"Dulcere! Dulcere!" Everything is sweet like golden honey!
That is to say, I tongue the light, the light tongues me like tea on saturday morning in orange autumn yellow and orange autumn after playing chess
on friday night with my black garbed holy brother
tongues the flesh of the spirit soothes soul with bliss.
--And
I see a leaf fall from the point-of-contact, the actual nub on the branch.--
Ergo, God. QED!
I gött the Shakers in me!
Mother's Day, 1996
Kathryn Jordan, who are you? I do not know who you are, but you made it into the most private book in the world.
Jim, who is she? And what? And
who and what are we who wonder who and what is she?
I had a poet's dozen without her, Kath, but I had a dozen roses, so I included her, and the next'll be a baker's dozen ... but your grandmother knows all about that.
Now, Jim and I are friends as no two men have
ever been, like he and Kath share secrets no one else will ever share, but Mom, you have intuitions. Today
you sourced your dozenth rose, a dozen roses hath a woman spawned............
God Nature Love Beauty Way It Ying-Yang Being
Big-Chief-In-The-Sky Harmonia, which is to say, "A Katie Rose by any other
name..."
Kelly, your belly
birthed a veritable living transformation, an immortal twin to immortal god.
And you, TBone, stake my heart with fire-pleasure
to make me think of you, the baby,
But
Dad you made all of us, like your father before you, his before him, all the way
back to Adam.
And Daly, listen
to Doyle: Blue Cezanne landscapes soothe a man's need for
confirmation: It is not only okay to follow your instinct, it is an obligation.
I, e. g., love Lauren
Kathryn Jordan Boyle--can I call you Michael?-- Rose of Celebration-- You were born into a family secret.
Thomas
ToeMan, what's up with the photographic memory at two years old? I guess if you got it, you got it. Is that what it is?
What is it? I guess it doesn't matter what you call it. It
is what it is.
I held you in my
arms today, at your request and mine. I've held you in my arms many times, but
here's the thing about today: It was at your request and mine, simultaneously.
Listen, as I write this I know that you cannot
understand all of it now, And it is always true of a man that he cannot understand
all of it now, But I know that you will understand it when you are a man.
As your uncle held you, Your cheek against his chest, So, too, you will hold your
sibling's son.
Look, familial
love is holy and all things holy belong to GOD And no matter who or what your God
is, your God is a God of GOD And whoever intuits that, has an advantage.
Thomas, picture an infant in my arms, Cheek upon my chest, relieved, comfortable, sate, And your
photographic memory might tap into a moment Forever unknown by the world, save us.
Brian
BriMan, why, man, are people tryen to be something that they're
not? Let me vent to you, cause we both got scars around our heads To medal our struggle, to verify a common pain.
How old are you now? What year is it now? Ah, let us leave the insipid, vacuous world for an hour. Come, let's go away to a world where only you and I can visit. Let's break off from the biting superficiality and meaningless of their world. Oh those wretched others! O those wretched others. O, O, O! O! O! O! When the wind passes they do not notice. When truth changes
mood, they are unattuned. When God is watching most intensely, they do not sense
it. These things we know, these things we intuit, these things— It hurts to be sensitive.
Come on, Bri, you and me, let's fly away on our hearts and go where
no one can find us.
There.
Here. We're here. Nobody else is here, only you and your godfather.
Isn't it sweet to be removed from the others?
How old are you now? A little older than the
last time I asked. Here's some poloniusian wisdom. Fulfill yourself with little regard for the world. Care
only for the things about which you should care. Care about the right things, and
care about the right people. The right people are you, Thomas, Kathryn, Mom, Dad,
whoever's in your mother's belly, and concentric familial circles. Outside that, a limited few who will occasionally change. Outside that, choice artists, scientists, and thinkers. The right things to
care about are your pure relationship to Nature, behaving amid the world with grace, and values like truth, beauty, god, love, and fate. Fulfill yourself with regard to these people and things. And
your world will fall into place with the world.
Now let us go, you return to your world and I will return to mine. And
when it's time, return to this page, so together we can abandon the world again.
JIM
There is no
time for us to come apart. Forever, forever and forever We are together like the night and dark. And the light that harkens in our
fiery hearts Beckons us to see with our eyes closed Just what secrets fated futures hold While the wind sneaks across the brook
like a child.
There is no time
for us to come apart Because time does not exist in the world Of that which is eternal. Therefore spark Yourself
to something valiant, noble, strong, And beautiful, now that this frank, long song Is done, and nothing remains but your thoughts Bending to GOD like yellow roses to the sun.
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